must stop

must stop smoking and drinking with complete strangers. of course, strangers become friends, but is it really worth it when you have to wake up early to go to work, still smelling like a sour ashtray? no. I have a responsibility problem. but this job doesn't pay me enough to be responsible anyways. I want to stay home. I want my mother.

Why? Stupid. But I wasn't born to be smart anyways. I was born to sleep at odd times and talk about nothing for hours. I should be a newscaster.